grateful17

I was born to an unwed woman. I never knew my Father. She initially placed me for adoption but changed her mind. I wished for a very long time she would give me back up. She resented me. Was never nurturing. I would later learn she suffered from mental health issues. I was essentially raised by my grandmother who passed away a few years ago and I essentially feel orphaned. I do not have any siblings. I've always been an overachiever but I had to learn my lesson that no matter what I achieve I will never be good enough in my mothers eyes. I've gone no contact. I have a toddler son who is my greatest joy. It would be lovely to have a mentor and have healthy positive relationships with appropriate boundaries.