saraya

I like to think of myself as a nice, sweet, loving person that you can count on. I was born and raised in virginia. I'm mixed black and white. Mother is black/white and father white. My mother became pregnant with me when she was 15 and father 18 Raised by my Grandmother (my mothers, mother) and grandfather that I was taught to believe was my mom and dad and my aunt and uncles were my brothers and sister. I figured at a very young age that this was not true but never revealed the truth that I knew till the death of my grandmother/mama. Immediately after her death I moved in with my biological mother when I was 10. Everything that I knew and loved was being taken from me. My sister was now my aunt my brothers now my uncles and I had a new state, home, school and sister and brother. I knew of them but wasn't really aloud to know them before the death of my grandmother because they were black. Around this time I met my biological father for the first time and when I was 16 my mother sent me to live with him because she couldn't control me and he molested me. I have lived on and off with my mother since I was 14 due to the fact that we just can't get along because she was and is emotional mentally and physically abusive. In our last battle with each other I decided that I wasn't going to take her mental/emotional abuse any more and ended up losing my brother and sister that I became very close with and aunt. Now the only family I have is my daughter and her father. I wish I could substitute my family for my daughters fathers family but he's in the same boat as me, so we literally only have each other. I need a mother / sister connection because I believe that family is all you have its all you need without family you have nothing.