sweetheart95

I just graduated High School & I was going to attend San Jose State but due to financial problems I can't. So now I'm attending my first year at Santa Monica College, & hopefully in two years I can leave with 3.7 or higher & transfer into UCLA. I live at home with my mom & recently her friend & 3 kids moved in, so I'm quite stressed out from that. My mom & I don't really get along & although she loves me, we're really seperated, we hardly talk. I suffer from sever depression, since I was a little girl, due to not having a father in my life, being abused sexually, & although it's my fault, I let guys use me all the time, looking for attention/love, but just leaves me more broken than before. I'm really trying to better myself & I want so badly to believe that I can make it through this & actually turn out successful despite the fact I'm depressed, I don't have any family, and any support. My mom was in foster care growing up, & once she turned legal age they kicked her out. I see my dad maybe every 3-5 years, & he has another daughter & family he cares for. So with that, it's literally just my mom & I. I came to this site to hopefully find some supportive people to get to know, laugh with, & to show me that I am wanted